And we're in baby!!!!

Well 2 weeks in and we are sort of settled!!! Was a total nightmare!

Moving day: We nearly didn't get a van as we didn't have the right I.D for Matt, and then my card got declined!!!!! finally got one, so we start loading the van, kiddies happily at my mums, first we drop the washer down the step, ace. then the sofa get stuck!!! marvelous! all sorted tho, minor blips!!!! took just a few hours to get everything in the house! get it sorted. also get the cooker delivered the same day!

We had an electrician round to fit the cooker on the weds, turns out, the nesbits that are KNH have had a new shower fitted, but cut the wire that goes to the cooker shut of switch! great micro meals and KFC for a week, shame! Also ordered kids bedroom shit to be delivered on the Tuesday, turns out, card through the door, "we have left it in your garden" funny that, I don't see it!!! obv been robbed, had it re-ordered, tells me it been delivered for a 2ND time, and signed for!!!mm mm no, I would remember signing for it, 3rd round, diff order, apparently signed for again! no sir not me!!!! ace, turns out, delivery driver was off so had cover and went to wrong House...lavvly. so I have to send of my drivers licence to prove it wasn't me that signed for it!

apart from that, it is a fantastic area, gorgeous house, 2 big gardens, and I have got in touch with a few other mummies round here which I plan to meet up with on Sunday.
also Reg's at the surestart centre so I can take kiddies up 2-3 times a week

all in all, very happy.

Another Update

We should be picking up the keys to the new house in the next couple of days, and to say im excited is an understatement, I am sooo happy, have picked out everything we are buying!!!!
Also we have a poorly baby, think it may be swine flu, he is full of it, my babe never cires, and he screams when we put him down, come out with rash allover his torso, so off to docs tomorrow, poor lil lad

Jake is doing good, im contemplating cutting off his dads side of the fam, they still let him see his dad, even tho i got court papers saying they need my permission, and last time he came back saying he has 2 mummies, and i know that this is becase he calls matt daddy....i could say so much more in this family,but will wait till i move, no one actually knows where we are going, only people that will is a few close BC friends, my mum, matts mu and matts ex for the sake of his kid...

i have told a few porkies as to where we are going to a few people haaaa, to put them off, but, you will get a shock, as nice as you try to be to stay near jake, i know your games, and i sussed your bull lies, and you will be shocked....you really have no idea......

thats it for t'nite\....oh but, WTF is with xfacotr????

Well done Liam, and well done me

My friends babies op went as planned today, I have been at twiddling my thumbs waiting for text, it all went good, little man is all drugged up and bandaged up, he was born with no soft spots and poor little baby had to have surgery on his head, 5 hour op, love ya all xxxxx

Also, check me out, gonna be a racing driver muahahha, driving lesson today, and i cracked the 3 point turn in just 3 attempts, he said if i did it that way in my test i would pass!! whey!!!!!

been told our new house will be ready in 3 weeks, having work done on it, i cant wait!!!! so exited!!!!! Jake is all giddy too! he is going to be sleeping at Matt's mums for the first time next week, bless him, he adores them, and even tho they are not 'real' grandparents, they are really, he is all giddy! they have Luke overnight whenever his mum isn't working Saturday nights, they love it. I believe a strong bond with the paternal grandparents are a need really, both of my kids are close to there grandparents, mine and Matt's side, and its ace! :))))))

Matt seems to have recovered from his pig flu.....MM man cold i thinks....so hopefully will be off to see his Lil man this weekend, glad things are finally sorted in that way, not my place to say, but he is SO much happier since he can see him. hopefully i will get to see him soon and introduce him to his baby brother! he will just adore him!!!!

anyways enough rambling from me!!! xxx

New House!!

As the title says, we have finally been offered a new house, it is not the estate we wanted, its out of the way, lavvvly area, big front and back garden...GET IN!! we need to take a look at it to check size on kids bedroom, but if its ok, we will be moving very soon, im sooooo happy, i danced round the room!! just what we need, new start. not sayin where it os as there are certain people who wont be getting told, like jakes gran and grandma, it wont affect them seeing him, it just means we will drop them off. cant have my ex knowing where we are.

it is a good 30 min drive from here. i love it. not looking forward to packing tho!!! where do you start eh!! we have so much shit, im looking forward to taking our time and decorating all nice and making it home. this place neeeds it, but i hate it!

totally new area for us all, new start and im reaallllyyy excited!

nothing else exciting, not like anything is exciting.

A huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge good luck to one of my good friends baby, poor love is off for an op on tuesday, lil man will be totally fine, but its so daunting, love ya leesssyy xxxxxx

Update

My nan is bck at home, well was untill today, my mum, who isnt in the best of health herself was staying there, but was struggling, my poor nan cant lie down in bed, cant stand up cant walk, and it was getting really tough, went to see her with kids, and they put a smile on her face, and matt said her disco dancing days are over!!!!, bless, she went into a nursing home today, she must be totally crushed, so independant, just till she gets back onto her feet, which im sure she will soon enough.

well, house wise, we wer told we were near the top of the waiting list for a house on the estate matt used to live, lived there with his babies mummy ages ago, and alone in a flat too, and then we rang yest and they said we are 28th!!!!!!! and i rang today and they said we dont have a position on the list whhaaaaattttt???? so we are ringing back tomorrow to speak to the lass who actually has the list on her comp, she wasnt in today and no one else has it apparently.....fingers crossed, apply for 6 every week, on leeds council and kirklees, really wanna move bad, i hate this house, hate it, tis not a home, too small, scruffy, i wanna decorate and have it nice, but i aint spending cash on it when i hate it!

got a new driving teacher today, went really well, i text him and told him to expect me to be really bad, as i was sooo nervous, but i did surprisingly well!!!! a hell of a lot better than i thought! so hopefully it will go better, i am only having an hour a week, so he said he would have me passed by july, so i might think about doing 2 hours a week, but an hour each time....then it doesnt wreck my head!!!!
so fingers crossed, drove matt for the first time other dya, he shit himself, he was terrible, his car is powerfull and diff, and i got scred knowing he dint have dual controls!!! even tho he did keep jumping for the brake haha bless him!!!!!

nothing else to report..all boring really!!! matt off to see his lil man on saturday, so i dont have jake friday night so me and luke might take a trip into waakey or something...meeting the mother in law on friday, matt was s'possed to go to london but dont think he is as he STILL not ben paid ffs...grrrrrrrrrrrr......but ill still meet her anyways, i can moan about matt then!!!

thats it now..bed timeeeee xxxxxx

Get well nana and update

My poor Nana, shes grand old age of 84, lives on her own, sooo damn independent, has fallen down her steps leaving the flat and broke her hip :(, and she cant take some strong painkillers as they make her puke, and others make her ulcers flare up, bless her, so my mum is staying with her for a while, and neither have had any sleep, wish i could help in some way.. GET WELL SOON xxxxxxx

Not really been up to much lately, nothing exciting, may have over active thyroid problem, been investigated MM, needles, lovely! got me a new pram, a lush one!!! stuck the pliko on eBay, see boring, nothing exciting!!!
we have been told we are super close to getting our new house in the area we want, not saying where as i don't want my ex ever finding out! we got offered on on fanny moor crescent, ha ha, Matt wouldn't be able to live there he such a child....and it was in Huddersfield and we don't want that...

i got insured on Matt's car today, and also found myself a new instructor, i liked driving the vectra, so different to the fiesta i was used to, hardly notice you got an accelerator!! ain't drove for 2 weeks so need to get back into it, wanna be passed in the early new year!

big shout out to my mates who have been ill too!! good old sooz, ya big shlaaag!!!! poor sod got oink oink, get better soon babe,

our night out int happening in Leeds now, me and Matt were gonna go Blackpool for the weekend, but with my mum at my nans, no one to have Jake, not overly fussed, as long as my nan is getting looked after, a takeaway will do me fine..
thats all for now xxxx

Shopping Addiction

I really shouldn't allow myself to onlineshop when drunk LOL...went out today to soccer city to run Jake round like a loon to tire him out! and we ended up at white rose after, I have an addiction to NEXT absolutly everything the kids wear is from there, I love it.. YOu should see me at the half price sales, im like a mad woman i just throw everything in, So i took myself there and got jakey boy some jeans nd a jumper, then we arrive home to a huge parcel fromt he catologue..jesus...i got bit giddy on friday haha, the kids are now kitted out till next year..oppppssss...ah well, gotta hve my babies looking good!!!

Not really been up to much else, my big night out in leeds is cancelled booo, so me and my yummy man are going out, and i will be insured on the car so im driving us, haha matts shitting himself, he aint experienced my driving yet..yeah bye bye new car!!! only just bought it and im gonna write it off....So it will be aakash for tea, ice age 3 if i get my wya at the flicks then a few beers at the pub me thinks, not got either baby at home al night, first time in months, god we both need a break, and a sleep!!!

So no doubt will update drunken antics!!!tahts all folks xxx

Sad News and poorly arms

Well lets start with the sad news, when i was with my ex, he worked with a bloke called stuart, and i worked for stuarts wife carole, now these two are bestest of friends and have been for a very lot of years with my exs mum and her partner, we all went to the pub together on a sunday, got quite drunk etc, and i actually had my first ever slow dance with stuart on new years eve as my ex wouldnt dance haha, so anyways, jakes grandad fetched jake home on wednesday, and i asked me if i knew if stuart had died the night before..obviously i didnt now. gutted. he had died at 3am after a 2 month battle with cancer, obv as i am only in touch with jakes grand parents when needed, i hadnt a clue he was even so ill.
he was allways so healthy, lovely bloke, was quite close. So RIP wardy!! I wont be there wednesday as ya know im on really bad terms with family and dont want to be rows, hope you have a good send off, yall be missed soo much xx

As for the poorly arm, i had an implant to stop me spouting more kids and it bloody hurt, im such a girl!! taking off bandage now and might jus cry..

Thats all for now
rian xXx

Computer mania

So matthew decided to move the comp downstairs again, so he could at least sit with me whilst working. and he huffed and puffed as he hauled it down, and plugged it in, plugged the net in..and no net...oppps, the phone thing was shagged, wouldnt work! so we had to go fork more cash out to buy a wireless card for it, all because he didnt want to carry it back up! took up a lot of stress especially as jakey boy was in one of his ever annoying moods today. he is so difficult. its just a phase.

Feeling a little down latley like im stuck in a circle of bottles, bums, fedding, shouting at jake, cleaning etc etc, i love been a mummy wouldnt change it for the whole world and its dog, but everyone needs a break. i even have to bath and shave my legs with jake sat in the bath!!! love him!
need some me time! my driving lessons are my escape really 2 hours away doing something as simple as driving but something that wil change everything in a good way. cant wait to pass, i allready love it, i wont have to worry bout buses and rain and jake refusing to walk and just sitting on the floor and crying!

my fitness going well, i have lost 2 pounds this week, cut out beer and shit food, and also 30 mins running and squats and lunges etc every night, i can zip my size 10 jeans up once more! i want to shift a bit more, and i want to be fit too. 2 kids to run around after is hard. I have a humongus pile of ironing to do, again! but I just aint doing it tonight!

jake not off to his grans this weekend, they away, and my mum busy. and matthew usually goes to see his yummy lil man on a saturday so i may take kiddies somewhere!
sat watching katie price, god i hate that woman! i hate bad manners and slags and people generally like her! im a foul mouthed sod at times but only in anger, I hate people like that!!!1 grrrrrr, pete is just so yummy! and such a good daddy!!!!

Rian xXx

Stressed out baby!!!!!

Well as the title says, I am majorly stressed!!!! Jake has decided to be a total muppet all day, he just wont listen, and as i am sat trying to get luke to sleep, he runs up claps in his face, gets stuff out of kitchen and i cant tell him off incase luke wakes up as it took so long to get the ratty baby to sleep, and jake knows this! raaaaaaarrrrrrrr, matt has gone to see him little boy, hope he lil monkey is okay!

Benn house hunting again, we will be in a position to get a decent private rent soon, but I am so desperate to move i have been applying for council everywhere, you actually apply online now and tday i have applied for 15 houses! I hate this house it depressed me, we took it as we needed somewhere to live, it had n0 heating for a year, and when i convinced the landlord to get it he wackedd the rent up, its now ridiculously priced, we can afford it no problem, but we can get double for what we pay. thing is with estate agents, they make you pay for credit checks, and we just simply wont pass one, so the other option is a provate landlord in shitty area or council, i prefer council as you stay as long as you wnt etc and they are usually bigger, also any repairs are carried out straight away. this is stupidly small, 1 bed and box room!!!
we want one near matts mums, he has had 3 houses up there before and they are nice so hopefully if inag the housing asociation enough maybe we will get one!!!

god enough ranting!
rian xXx

My Brave Boy

Just got back from Lukes jabs, 3, poor lil man.. its awful but has to be done. he cried a bit but he is fast asleep on me now.Jake is been his pain in the ass self today, even tho last night he actually slept all night!!!

Health kick started today. my goal is to be 10 stone again, and at 5 foot 7, i reckon i will be just right. currently 11 stone, which i carry well, but I'm all wobbly!!!

so no beer, no fast food, how will i cope?? I hope I cn stick to it, I suffer bad with self confidence and always think I look a mess, i think if i can shift this then I will be happy!

Gonna start looking for work I think, matthew is self-employed from home now, and its a pain been under each others feet 24/7 but, I cant complain as i get lie ins and he doesnt work 9-5 so i get help with the kids etc but I need to do something, even just part time, Maybe more hours when jake starts nursery in january, Have registered him at a few but i dont like any round here, im not racist in anyway but, some are 95% asian, and even have translaters! I dont want my sons learning slowed because some kids who live in england, at an engish nursery have not even been taught the english language, its ignorance on the parents part.

Matthew's lil boy goes to a really good school, and hopefully we will be moved by the time it comes to jake going to nursery and i can get him a nursery place there, his kid is really smart and polite etc so they are obviously doing a good job at the school and the nursery will no doubt be the same.

Floggin a load of stuff on ebay lately, makes a few quid, baby clothes fly out! so that will keep me busy, me and the kids take a walk out to the post office nearly every day, fun eh!!!???

anyway, now luke is flat out, its time for me to go back to mummy duties nd gonna run round with jakey boy for a bit xxxx

WIped out!

God im just so tired!! no idea why tho, laid in bed with my last beer for 4 weeks!!!no drinking till my night out with my ladies, cant wait, my mummy friends are travelling to leeds, from scotland, geordie land, lincoln, manc all over!!! fantastic bunch of gals they are! staying at etap for the night and gonna gte good and drunk, the reason why im not drinking is coz i have myself a brand new gorgeous dress, a size 10, and im pissed off as it did fit me! now its tight, but the thing is i have to slim a bit, as it is a zip al the way up, and its bd enough my DD's are stretching it anyway, i dont want my lard ass busting the zip and me walking round leeds in nothing but bra and what looks like a coat!!!! a short one!!! so on with the walking, wii-fit and no beer and no takeaways!!!

i ned to get fit anyways, im not exactly healthy, i need a load of energy to keep up with the kids, off for an implant on tuesday, and when it runs out i wilbe getting anotherone fitted straight after, no more kids for at least 6 years, i woud absolutly adore a il girl, but just not yet, i said if luke was a girl i would have no more!....

wel, i think one more wee is in order then im off to the land of nod, poor baby pudding has 3 jabs 2morrow,not looking forward to it, matt had to take him for his last ones as i knew id just cry!!! poor lil man, im braving it this time as my baby oves his mummy! he was crying lst night and wouldnt go sleep but as soon as i picked him up off matthew and cuddled him hewent o sleep on me, lavvly feeling that was, made me blub..again LOL

Rian xXx

Sunday..relax day?

Just put baby pudding back to bed with his daddy, and ive actually managed to clean, do washing, hang washing out, although that pile of ironing is still there and ever growin, maybe, if i put it in the shed it will come ot ironed? ok, so i need to get off my lard ass to do it,

Jake is at his nannas till one, e probbly slept ll night for her and is masaging her feet as i type, he loves my mum, she has soooo much patience for him, they do all gardening etc and he has his own fish, bless him!
im pretty boring today, normal house stuff
wonder if matt is going to play any poker? he was supposed to play like 10,000 hands or something by monday, i dont think he has managed it!!!!!!

I ait played for ages no time, still ot sh on CD poker i think! not a lot tho as i wasnt that good haha!

anyways, ironin it is!

AND RELAX

Tis friday night and im sat here with a glass of rosa wine, having half hour before i tackle the ironing. Finally kids are asleep, Jake my eldest, has been having a few nigges lately with sleep, he hates been on his own but with the size of this house i cant get his bro in with him just yet, i know he will love this, and as soon as we move they wil be sharing, he will love it, Jake is such an intelligent boy, and has such a colourfull imagination, so funny, but he has vivid dreams lateley and they scare him, poor lil man.
Luke is a fab baby, has slept 12 hours a night since 5 weeks old, what a dream, he is cosy on the bed with his daddy right now, such an amazing dad to his kids, they adore him, luke will figit at around 4AM but he jsut comes out of his cot and cuddles his daddy and sleeps till 7.

Had bad news today, My sis got attacked on the way to work, 5am in the morning, on the phone to her bird walking to work, and a car pulls up at side, 3 blokes jump out and smash the shit outa her, steal her phone and she ends up in A and E...its so terrible, shes a lovely person and has been through so much and has become true to what she realy is latley and its ace, sooo did not deserve this. has worked since 16, wonderful person, and some scum from round here in a stolen car do this. its discrasful.Its another reason why i want to move out of here.

We cant wait to move, we havebeen on the waitin lists for a council place, we work, but my idea was that with a council place, there is no set contract, and you n ever have to leave unless you want to, so i could spend cash doing it up for the kids nice etc..BUt having no luck so I am looking for a private rent, 3 bedroomed with a garden, seen loads of lovely places and i cant wait to get the ball roling.

WEll off to check the rest of my emails then on with the cleaning, my turn to get up early tomorrow so not late one.

Rian xxx

New Intro

Well, Here goes, This is my rant, stress and general shit chit chat page! My public diary really! I'm getting a little bored buzzing stuff about in my little mind, so I thought, hey, lets write it down and let other people into the crazy mind I have!

A bit about me, I'm a yummy Mummy! got 2 young children, and they keep me busy most of the time! Live with Mr pudding who can be found HERE who as you can see, is a poker fan! I supoose he doesnt do to bad!

I don't really know where to start, there is so much in my lil head I suppose i will start from this week!

So, we go and buy a netbook thing, and a wireless router, mainly so matt can work (self-employed) and i don't boot him off to check my facebook or other random sites! Turn out the router thing needs setting up with a CD thing, and as our luck is bad, ours doenst work, so off he toddles to buy one, tries to fit it to the main PC, and what happens, Nothing, its broken, mouse wont work, computer capput!!! but been the little geek he is, he manages to get it sorted and gets me online! marvelous!

I dont know what I would do without the net now, I lived without it for so long but now its just a daily thing, log on check bits and bobs, then get on with the day.

So, been trying to loose some weight too, I put on a hefty 4 stone with baby pudding, and it shot me up to 14 stone! OMG, i looked hideous by the time he came out, wobbly bits, saggy boobs! but, been a good girl, I have managed to shed 3 stone of it, I can carry the extra quite well as im tall, but im still not as slim as i want, the beer and chinese dont help but its something im prepared to give up soon, want to be fit again!!!
Got a wii trainer for my birthday as well as driving lessons from my man, so I've been keeping up with them and hopefully both will change things a bit!

Rambling on, but its friday, kids are still awake grrrrrrrr, but i opened my first beer! gonna set this thing up and then get them allready and asleep, and then i can settle with my nice huuuge pile of ironing for the night!!! lavvlyyy

Rian xxx